My Experiences As A Child Who Was Addicted To Video Games

Addiction to video games and technology is a very common problem we face in our modern society. There are millions of children who suffer from it every day, being unable to control their behaviour.

It might not affect the body like alcohol and drugs do, but it can still have major consequences on the addict’s life. These are mostly connected to poor grades and a lack of educational development, but also disconnection with friends and family, health problems, financial issues and depression.

It’s clear that something has to be done by the parents because children and teenagers haven’t got enough self-discipline or awareness to make conscious decisions. But I can’t agree with the recommendation that the access to video games and internet should be taken away by force.

Every situation is unique, but there are always hidden causes of addiction that may not be seen by parents. If something is out of balance and children cannot cope with the absence of technology, it means there is a strong need that is unfulfilled and playing a video game might be the only way that satisfies that need.

I understand how difficult can the situation be for parents who just want the best for their kids. But I also understand how it’s like to be a child who suffers from computer addiction, because I went through it myself. That’s the perspective I want to share with you as well.

The Accident And Bullying At School

I was 9 years old when a concrete block fell on my back at an old and unguarded construction site where we used to play as kids. I lost the ability to walk along with my whole identity and self-worth because my legs helped me express myself in unlimited ways and blend in at school.

In addition to the painful loss, I experienced a lot of bullying at school where I felt like a piece of shit. It was like a jungle where the strong preyed on the weak. Most classmates ignored me. Some of them were abusive and got a high from the bullying, especially if they shared this pleasure with others.

I couldn’t even look into one of my classmate’s eyes because he felt intimidated by the fact that someone like me was looking into his eyes. He stared at me with hate, ordering me to look away even though we didn’t have any personal issues. He just wanted to avoid any signs of friendship with me.

One of the boys even laughed at my atrophied legs and told me: “Serves you right!” Again, a tough blow to my self-esteem which was already quite non-existent. Instead of fighting back, I just took it in like I had deserved it.

Countless times I was afraid of going to school. But I didn’t talk about these problems … even with my family. I didn’t want to be a snitch, and believed it would have only made the situation worse. I wished for respect and acceptance, that’s why I was afraid to lose it.

The Only Place Where I Felt Safe

When I got home, I finally had the chance to escape from my reality. I played computer games because it was a place I could feel FREE. I could BE MYSELF and feel EQUAL TO OTHERS. I even used to be a clan leader in many games because I had the confidence. Just like in the old days.

In the virtual world I had the opportunity to be a completely different person. Be whoever I wanted actually. While I was nobody in my real life. There are many other reasons why video games are so attractive, but this was the root cause.

My mother didn’t like that. She wanted me to do exercises and take care of myself. I’m grateful that she forced me to move because otherwise I would’ve probably withered away completely. I felt a lot of resistance though. It was hard.

She felt that my computer addiction was destroying my life, so she tried different methods to stop it. Shouted at me. Threatened me to send me to a boarding school. Pulled the plug by force and banned me from using it. I understand why she did these things, but it added fuel to the fire.

The virtual world was my whole life. I felt safe and joyful there. If this was taken away from me, I felt panic and fear. Sometimes I hated my mother for it. Anger and resistance grew inside me. The relationship got damaged, and even years later I’ve gone to therapy to heal the wound.

Guilt And Sadness Under The Frustration

I was also angry at the fact that I couldn’t be independent. She came to pick me up from school, and it embarrassed me because I was old enough to be interested in girls. I didn’t like to be seen with my mother. I understood that it was needed, but I couldn’t accept it.

I was frustrated. I didn’t have the mood to talk to her while we were driving home. This hurt her really bad, and sometimes became angry or started to cry. I felt guilty because I felt I was the reason that she had so much pain in her life. She basically raised me alone…

When I tried to express my feelings, it easily led to more conflict and pain. That’s why I decided to repress my emotions and ignore her. Only when I arrived home and shut myself into my room, I could let all the emotions out and think to myself: “Forgive me, mother! I’m sorry that I am like this. I just can’t control myself. I don’t know what to do. Please forgive me.”

Deep Loneliness That Almost Killed Me

So I hated to be at school. I hated my whole life, including myself. And my mother didn’t want me to play computer games. Of course she couldn’t force me all the time, so I still played a lot. At one point she even gave up, but the damage was already done.

I was a very traumatized boy who felt alone. No one knew what I was going through. I felt like a burden to my family, thinking that I should have died when the concrete block crushed me. I felt like there was no meaning to my life.

Of course I hated the fact that I couldn’t walk. That I was different from everyone else. But most of all I suffered from loneliness and disconnection. It can be very painful if you cannot even talk to your family while dealing with such a great loss.

I tried to kill myself many times, but luckily I didn’t. I saved myself. My mother couldn’t. She gave up on me and one day I finally came out of it myself. I went through plenty of suffering on the way, but it happened.

A Turning Point

Suffering was actually an important part of my transformation. A lot of people have waken up and discovered their true selves through the experience of pain. Because at one point it’s so painful that you just have to change. If I couldn’t die, I needed to wake up and start living instead. There was no other way.

It is a long story. But today I’m one of the happiest people on the planet. I know that everything can be healed. Everything is possible!

I only wish that things would be easier for others. For the children and for the parents. That’s why I want to share my story with as many people as I can.

The truth is that people always have the best intentions in their heart and do the best they can with the resources they have. There is no need to blame anyone. Me and my mother were both victims of the unfortunate situation. But we can learn a lot from it.

What I really want to say is that we must go deeper to find the hidden causes of our problems. We need to pay attention to our loved ones and try to understand what they are going through. We need to connect rather than fight and separate.

Every addiction is a sign that a need of some kind is unmet. We give our best to fulfill these needs because we want to feel good and do what’s best for us. If we keep that in mind, we can forgive and move forward.

I know my mother loved me and did everything she could, although it was difficult to really understand her point of view while dealing with my emotions at the same time.

So things are not always what they seem. We actually care more than we express. Know that deep down your children are grateful for everything you do for them!

Mission To Walk Again And Inspire Millions

Friends, I’m on a powerful mission.

I intend to demonstrate to millions of people how powerful is a human body when your heart is filled with love and the burning passion of a thousand suns.

My mission is to experience true human potential and show that everything is possible. And the first milestone is rising on my feet without crutches in summer 2019.

The Decision Has Been Made

Anyone who has followed my journey knows that it’s not a new idea for me. I admit that I have repeatedly promised this to my friends and online buddies. That now is the time. And it is true that I have lost my focus many times.

But never because I have lost faith in this. As surprising as it can be, faith in my healing has grown with every year, even though it’s been over 17 years since my accident. One familiar clairvoyant saw me walking with a cane as a 24 year old, but the time passed without success.

When I was younger I did hope that the prediction was right, but nowadays I’m not dependent on these kind of prophecies anymore. Most of the doctors have never given me such hope, and it still doesn’t stop me because I’m the creator of my own reality, not anyone else.

I know what I see inside me, and this vision has shown me since I was a teenager that I would be running one day. It has also happened in the dreams of my friends, even though most of them have never seen me running as they didn’t know me as a kid.

My main obstacle only used to be the lack of making a real decision. I played with the idea for quite some time, but I didn’t have enough inner strength to take on the challenge, and I also had difficulties with self-management and maintaining focus.

Today I have plenty of power and wisdom to finally pull it off. First I had to become friends with my pain, discover the magical self-love and become aware of who I truly am. Then it took a few years to learn how to manage myself and figure out the daily patterns and habits.

Finally I understood the kind of triggers which empower me. Practical tools to make my dreams come true. The only thing that was missing, was a definite decision to burn all bridges and ships leading to the old world. And I’m very grateful for one special female friend who activated the switch.

My Biggest Why

Picking such a goal seems so obvious to most people that it doesn’t need explaining. Everybody dreams about a healthy functional body. And many of my fellow companions have thought the familiar thought: “If only I could walk … my life would be perfect.”

I really believe that if I had such an attitude, I would have never reached this far.

As a teenager I indeed believed that healthy legs would have solved all of my problems and stopped the nightmare in the blink of an eye. But the need to escape my reality was never strong enough to empower me. Instead it added fuel to my suffering.

Only when I discovered my true worth and learned to accept life as it is, I started to see the possibility of healing.

I think that one of my life’s greatest lessons has been connected to self-love. After it was achieved, I enthusiastically wanted to show the world that it is possible to be happy wherever and whoever you are. I believed it was my purpose.

But every journey comes to an end to give birth to a new one. I know that this is not all I can offer. And let’s be honest – it would probably be too easy.

My soul desires to break all mental limits and reach for the greatest potential. To experience a mission that seems impossible. A challenge that makes my body tremble with excitement.

There are plenty of inspiring people like Nick Vujicic and Sean Stephenson who have proved that the physical body is not an obstacle. I have seen repeatedly how people in the direst situations have the capability to be happier than most people with healthy bodies.

And this kind of inspirational life is undoubtedly a fantastic endeavour. I will definitely do this until my last breath because the core principle of my life is to be happy in the present moment. But I also want to add something especially thrilling and sweet!

What miracles can a happy person create? What is our true potential? These are the questions I would like to answer.

Some additional motives to walk again:

  1. I want to be a man who gives his best and exceeds himself in every way. A man who has a laser-focus and enormous dedication to work hard. This challenge gives me an opportunity to BE who I am, and EXPRESS what is inside me. So it is not about reaching the destination, but actually going on a powerful journey.
  2. I want to show the world how wonderful is a human being who has waken up. A large part of the mankind plays a small and irrelevant game of Matrix. It is sad how skilfully have humans managed to repress and diminish themselves. I wish to reveal the truth!
  3. I want to make my body happy and show gratitude for everything it has taught me. My body has been through A LOT. Now it is time to provide everything it has dreamed of. This is true respect and self-love.
  4. My transformation will have an enormous impact on the whole world. It will inspire millions of people to follow their wildest dreams. I also intend to give my best to support others with similar challenges on their way to health.
  5. I will do it … because I can.

So … if that’s clear, we can finally get down to business.

What Does It Take?

The main question is not about whether something is possible or not, but what kind of commitment, work and strategy it requires.

First of all it is clear that this is not a side project. To succeed I have to focus my whole attention and devote multiple hours a day to work with my body. But since I want to go all out I want to create a lifestyle that allows me to connect with my dream at every moment.

This means maximum time with myself. Empowering morning and evening rituals. The holistic system which supports the achievement of my goal, including financial freedom so I wouldn’t have to worry about resources. I obviously need to earn money at the same time, so I’m asking myself a question: “How to create financial abundance while making my dreams come true?”

The first thing that comes to mind is sharing the journey with the whole world – how have I reached the point where I am today and how will I reach the main goal. I believe it is a valuable contribution on its own. Financial success is largely dependent on how much value do we create. We must also apply smart strategies, but it begins with the desire to provide help.

“When a person really desires something, all the universe conspires to help that person to realize his dream.” ~ Paulo Coelho

Creating value also requires enough timely investments but since it’s in alignment with my greatest values, I receive energy to empower the journey I’ve chosen. Some sort of passive income wouldn’t hurt either.

It is also important to ask: “What do I need to sacrifice?” All distractions and forms of procrastination for sure. These have always managed to halt my progress, but luckily I have made a lot of improvements. I also have to say NO more often, take some risks and trust in myself.

How Can You Support Me?

I have never been a strong fan of asking for donations because I like to take full responsibility for everything I do. But this is also a time for me to overcome this limitation and ask for help because I deserve it. So I’ll probably create a Kickstarter type of project and create value at the same time.

Some ways you can support me right now:

  • You can share any ideas or offerings how can you play a role in this mission. It can also include thoughts on healing, finances, marketing and self-development in general.
  • You can also share your needs and challenges that would give me input I can use to create new blog posts, e-books and products that can provide even more value.
  • If you are ambitious and you would like to find a working partner to achieve your dreams, you can become my coaching client.

Let’s work together and help each other realize our greatest potential! I’m very grateful for the attention and even a smallest kind of help.

My Top Achievements Living With A Disability

So you are reading some of my blog posts and are wondering … what exactly are my qualifications to be trustworthy in the self-development field?

Well I’m still learning like all of us, but I have a powerful life story which could make a strong impact on my readers. My professional career has a lot of room for improvement, but I make up for it with my personality and a powerful vision for life.

Here are the top achievements of my personal life, so you can decide for yourself if you are interested in what I have to say:

  • Survived an apartment fire as a four year old and a concrete block falling on my back at a construction site used for playing when I was nine. I lost the ability to walk, but it was a miracle that I even survived.
  • Went through fire and water, experiencing a lot of suffering which lead me to value something very different in life compared to the other kids. It taught me strength. After many years I finally overcame depression and suicidal thoughts through compassion and self-forgiveness.
  • Took responsibility for my life and decided to never give up. Soon I discovered true self-love and learned to appreciate myself as I am. Sometimes I felt painful in public and when comparing myself to other people, but I gradually started to realize that I gained something much more precious than the superficial stuff everyone else had.
  • Started to believe that my accident was a gift to the whole world and I wouldn’t change a thing if I could travel back in time. Yes, I want to help others so that they wouldn’t need to experience so much pain as I did, but making peace with your past is very healing. What’s done is done. Take the best out of it and move forward.
  • Got a driving license and started to live independently in another city called Tallinn. This increased my self-confidence a lot. I managed to meet more people in three months than in all the previous years combined. Then I also graduated from Estonian Information Technology College as a IT Systems Administrator, although I knew it wasn’t my true path.
  • Discovered my true self and stopped identifying with my thoughts. Is there anything more important than this? I got a lot of help from the movie called Peaceful Warrior and The Power of Now written by Eckhart Tolle. I remember a moment when everything shifted – I literally woke up.
  • Became a vegan and tried to eat a raw food diet for over 3 years. This solved many of my health problems, but also made some things more complicated than ever because I made many mistakes. Still feel best without animal products, but I’m more flexible now. At the moment I’m in the process of healing my digestive system and I’m willing to do whatever it takes to help my body. I’m mostly grateful for the mind expansion I went through during all those years. Now I’m open to all possibilities and can accept anyone’s nutrition choices.
  • Lived five months in Portugal as an exchange student using my wheelchair. I got some help with transportation from time to time, but mostly I managed everything by myself. I even tried surfing which was totally awesome! Nothing is impossible, right?
  • Participated in a TV show about hiking with disabilities where we travelled 350 kilometres in Estonia by foot (or wheelchairs), bicycles, canoes, kayaks and horses. It was extremely challenging to struggle physically every single day while in front of the camera and dealing with other inner demons. Sometimes I felt totally helpless in a forest full of fallen down trees with my wet clothes and aching muscles, but it truly taught me a new kind of resilience. The lesson was simple: there are no limits to what we can do.
  • Got up and started to walk with crutches. I had this ability for a long time already, but I was living in my comfort zone, believing it was too unpractical and difficult. Then I finally decided to try and go to work only using my car and crutches. I began small, but eventually I managed to keep living like this most of the time, except when shopping in large supermarkets.
  • Joined a choir, became a public singer (soloist) and overcame the fear of being in the centre of attention. The first times were terrifying, but after a while I felt sure that I was born to be on stage. Singing has been one of the top ways for me to face my fears and increase self-confidence. And I think my voice sounds even fantastic now! I can’t imagine my life without singing anymore. Additionally I had violin lessons for 3 years until I took a break.
  • Participated in many tantric festivals and workshops as the only person with disability to overcome fears of intimacy and learn more about women and sexuality in general. This shows me I have grown to be a courageous man who likes to expand his comfort zone. In one particular workshop I was even naked in front of other women the first time in my life which was very liberating. I also gave and received a full-body massage which was quite an experience, but nowadays I prefer connections in my real life where these amazing things could happen for free.
  • Won a free ticket (2000€ in worth) to the luxury Raw Vegan Cruise in Croatia where I experienced romantic love for the first time in my life and got a confirmation that my disability is not a problem when it comes to women. The fear of not ever experiencing romantic love had stayed with me for a long time, but thanks to the growing confidence and trust in myself I finally attracted the experience. As we got separated, we haven’t seen each other again, so my next goal is to attract a long-term romantic relationship and also lose my virginity.
  • Won a singing contest and participated in an Estonian version of the American Idol where I didn’t get far, but managed to share a positive message to my people and touch hundreds of lives. I was also one of the few who didn’t sing an English pop song – instead I sang in Estonian and did what I felt was right.
  • Overcame the addiction to video games, TV shows and social media. Well it is still a challenge because I grew up with computers, but I can manage it quite well. At least I’m mostly doing something productive when I’m online. This was one of the most important achievements of my life because it took me closer to my real goals and I stopped feeling the kind of emptiness I described in one of my articles: Prison Break.
  • Got a 2nd place in a bestseller contest and published my first Estonian book called The Gift of Pain. This is something I’m most proud of because I created something of true value. I measure success in lives that I have changed and I think that this was a crucial step towards the fulfilment of my life’s mission.
  • Studied regression therapy for two years at a Holistic Therapy Institute in Estonia where I learned a lot about emotional healing and overcoming traumas. I didn’t finish it because I wasn’t ready to become a therapist (still quite a lot of emotional releasing to do) and I preferred coaching.
  • Got certified as a Professional Coach in Erickson Coaching International which is accredited by ICF. This improved my confidence to become an entrepreneur and quit my job as a webmaster.
  • So far I have shared my life story in four public schools to inspire children and teenagers. Also one of the most uncomfortable yet valuable and rewarding things I’ve ever done, but this will become a norm as one my greatest ambitions is to become a powerful public speaker.
  • Decided to rise on my feet in June 2019. Click here to see some of the cool video montages I have done.

This seems like a lot, and it really is, but because I can appreciate my life and celebrate the wins instead of complaining about my problems. I have plenty of challenges in my life and I have a long way to go, but I’m proud of myself.

When I fall down, I get up again. I have times when all the pain from my past comes back and I feel exhausted, but thanks to the power of mindfulness and self-love, I always find the strength to continue.

I have even bigger dreams on my to-do-list and when I look back to recognize what I have achieved so far, I totally believe I can make them all come true.

Come and join me on this amazing adventure and feel free to ask me any questions you’d like!

What Has Anime Taught Me

At first I want to point out that I don’t really watch anime anymore, and that has probably two reasons.

  • I feel that I have already watched all the best ones which have something important to teach me.
  • I’m old and aware enough that I don’t want to spend my life on entertainment.

This also includes TV shows, movies and other forms of entertainment. I don’t see them as bad and I don’t judge people who invest a lot of their time in this, but I have personally wasted so much of my life on computer games and different kinds of media, so I have quite a strong resolve to avoid these distractions as much as possible. And that makes a lot of sense if you have a powerful mission and you really love making progress in your “real life.”

But when it comes to anime, I honestly don’t regret any of it. I needed it as a teenager and it has served me for a long time, so I take the best out of all past experiences and make new decisions based on my current needs.

If I try to summarise all the positive benefits anime has given me, I can mention a few biggest wins:

  1. It convinced me to never give up and believe in myself no matter what.
  2. Filled me with inspiration and courage to dream big.
  3. Taught me a lot about Japanese culture and language, so now I can even sing at least 10 Japanese songs which I have also performed publicly in Estonia.
  4. Gave me many powerful opening songs and soundtracks which lift my spirits and give me motivation to work out whenever I listen to them.
  5. Inspired me to find a violin teacher and start learning one of the most challenging instruments.

I will describe some of the points in more detail in upcoming posts, but what makes Japanese anime unique for me is the depth of characters and unlimited fantasy.

I’ve learned a lot of life lessons from anime because it often consists of serious and important topics that are usually hidden in the western type of cartoons. The characters are multidimensional, and it is not always clear who is the hero and who is the villain. Even if it is, you can still sympathise with the so-called bad guys.

I also like the richness of different anime worlds. It has really expanded my imagination and helped me to keep that joyful and fantasying inner child active. So anime has been a strong influence to my capability to be bold in life.

Oh, and anime has the power to make everything seem as awesome! That’s why they are really motivating, be it sports, music or writing comics.

List of Anime I’ve Watched and Remember:

  1. Naruto (incl. Shippuden)
  2. Great Teacher Onizuka
  3. Kimi ga Nozomu Eien (Rumbling Hearts)
  4. Bleach
  5. Death Note
  6. Full Metal Alchemist (incl. Brotherhood)
  7. Code Geass
  8. Sword Art Online
  9. One Piece
  10. Hunter x Hunter
  11. Hajime no Ippo
  12. Kenichi: The Mightiest Disciple
  13. Steins Gate
  14. Monster
  15. One Punch Man
  16. Boku no Hero Academia
  17. Bakuman
  18. No Game no Life
  19. Boku dake ga Inai Machi (Erased)
  20. Kuroko no Basket
  21. Attack on Titan
  22. Mob Psycho 100
  23. Kino no Tabi: The Beautiful World
  24. Re:Zero kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu
  25. Getbackers
  26. Nodame Cantabile
  27. Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso (Your Lie in April)
  28. La Cordo Primo Passo
  29. Log Horizon
  30. Highschool of the Dead
  31. From the New World
  32. Welcome to the N.H.K
  33. Kimo no Na wa
  34. Avatar: The Last Airbender (American)
  35. The Legend of Korra (American)

I’m sure this is a small list compared to a real anime fan, but even my list involves investing a huge amount of time. Now when most of my anime needs are satisfied, the only anime series I currently watch from time to time is One Piece (because of the attachment to characters) and Attack on Titan (because it is brilliant and it doesn’t take much time).

If I had to recommend any of these, I would choose Naruto, Full Metal Alchemist, Death Note, Hunter x Hunter, Hajime no Ippo, Monster, Bakuman, Attack on Titan, Avatar, and La Cordo Primo Passo (if you want to play a musical instrument). Of course it would depend on the person’s interests and tastes. Because I’m all about spending time wisely, I’m careful when I recommend a long series, but if you really want to watch something, these are my top picks.

A Month Without Internet

Recently I was organising my old notebooks and documents, and found an inspiring writing about my experiences without the home internet in 2015. That was one of my coolest and mind-opening experiences of my life, and I want to share it with you:

I let go of my home internet. This is my first day in peace and silence. I am free of distractions, chaos, and limiting patterns. I feel pure and honest. I’m like a vibrant child again. I can breathe. I can feel!

There are no obstacles. I don’t have to motivate myself. Everything flows freely. Everything is simple. I am me. I am free.

No stimulation, only truth. Oneness with my body and environment. I have the awareness to listen, see and feel. I am alive and every moment is a gift!

I feel like I have all the time in the world. No longer I need to pay attention to the clock to worry about the death of another day. Time doesn’t even matter now. Now is all there is.

When did I usually go behind the computer and use the internet?

  • When I woke up and washed myself. As a teenager I even skipped washing and taking care of myself. Sometimes I couldn’t even go to the bathroom to empty my bladder.
  • Every time I ate food. I always needed some entertainment or stimulation. That also made me hurry when preparing or cooking food. I couldn’t enjoy and be mindful. I ate too fast and didn’t chew properly.
  • Every time I felt bored or anxious. It has been a way to fill the void. It has always been my safe zone.
  • Before going to sleep. It was really hard to skip it when I arrived at home even when it was late and I was exhausted. It was so automatic and normal that I couldn’t even imagine my life without this habit.

I don’t know who I am without the internet and PC. I feel total mystery and emptiness. I want to find out! I want to lose myself so I could find my true self.

Inability to use the internet or using willpower to stay away from it – these are totally different experiences.

I feel peace when I know I can’t cheat. I feel free. When I have the possibility to use the internet and stay offline at the same time, it is still good, but it’s not as great. I usually have temptations. I’m too close to my old world. Can’t focus. Can’t forget.

Suddenly there are no ways to escape. Everything is transparent. I see what is going on in our world. Chaos and disconnection, scared and lifeless faces. Everyone is hurrying somewhere, trying to survive, trying to escape and suppress.

So much is revealed in supermarkets where we buy food from. Just by going there and paying attention we can learn everything about our society. And it’s a bit funny, but mostly sad.

People are blind and dead, but they are still walking and acting like they know.

I have seen the same scene multiple times, thought about it a little, and then gone to my safe virtual world where everything is forgotten.

Every one of us tries to escape and forget. We fill ourselves with distractions and illusions. We make fuss over every little detail, but miss what is important. We create problems from something we can’t control, but ignore everything that can be controlled. We look outside, but rarely within. No responsibility or awareness of choice. Just lies.

We lie and when we don’t, we suppress. We like fairy tales, but fail to notice that our own life is the biggest one.

Take away all the distractions and the Matrix reveals itself.

I’m thankful for this opportunity to remove my glasses of zeroes and ones, and actually be present in this world. I am alive. I can begin the work.

Some of the changes that were happening to me during this period:

  1. Less thinking. Less information. More feelings. More expression.
  2. More time, but free of time.
  3. Total transformation. No limits. The core of my old world was lost. I felt like I could do anything. Everything could change.
  4. Mysterious feelings. Strong intuition. I didn’t know who I am, and it felt so good. I was one with the world. One with the silence.
  5. Attracted a meeting with a total stranger on the street. Had a deep conversation. She wanted to know more about the plant-based diet. Made a friend. It was incredible to see how open she was.
  6. Stronger body awareness. I felt like I was healing and could create miracles in that state.
  7. Less junk food cravings. I ate more mindfully. Eating had used to be connected to different computer activities like watching videos. Without the internet I ate more for nutrition, not entertainment.
  8. Better focus. It was easier to be productive, because I had less distractions.

Eventually I still returned to the virtual world (actually I only managed a month), but my perspective had become different. I became more mindful about my online activities and I started to value offline time a lot more.

I used to dream about staying offline forever because it used to be my biggest prison, but now I see it more like a tool for creation and spreading awareness. This is also my opportunity to have more freedom in my life as I dream about a location independent online business and entrepreneurship. I’m on the right track!

If this blog post inspired you, there is another one about breaking free from the virtual prison: Prison Break