My name is Madis Mark and I’m from Estonia. I believe that we should take the best out of life no matter what has happened to us. Our reality is not defined by the circumstances we experience, but how we interpret them. Most of us have used to believe that happiness comes from without, but I say that it’s a total inside job. We ourselves are the miracles we are searching for! Once we discover our inner power and realize this, we can enjoy every moment of our lives and create beautiful gifts that could change the whole universe.
When I was 9 years old, I had an accident, which changed my life forever. I lost the ability to walk and because of this, my joyful and carefree childhood ended at that moment. I was so devastated that I didn’t know how to continue on or what to do with all those emotions I felt. A lot of years passed while crying about my fate or escaping to the virtual world, which was the only place I could feel free and equal to others. I became very closed and depressed, fearing myself and the external world. I didn’t have the strength to do all the physical exercises I was told to do and my appetite for life was low.
The bullying what took place in my school made it even worse. I was very shy and unconfident, which wasn’t likable for my classmates. I wasn’t the boy who I had been before. I didn’t have quick running skills, which had helped me to blend in and receive respect from other boys. I wasn’t a normal child and that’s why they didn’t know how to interact with me anymore. Some of them simply stayed away from me, others became rather mean and exploitative. There were times when I felt like a complete trash at school and I was often afraid to go there. I became isolated and my self development was much slower than everybody else’s.
I also didn’t get along very well with my mother, who had to raise me alone. We had hundreds of conflicts, because my computer addiction and lack of self care. She wanted me to work out, but I didn’t have any discipline or willpower, so she had to force me quite a bit. Sometimes she turned off my computer by force and that’s why I started to grow resentment towards her. And being around her all the time while I was already a teenager wasn’t easy either. It hurt my ego a lot, when she picked me up from school every time while I was interested in girls and all that stuff. I also had two brothers, but they were much older than me, so they weren’t very close. One of them lived at the same house for many years, but he was just becoming a grown up, who wanted to be alone as much as possible. We had many fights over who could use the computer, which lead to cursing, which lead to physical fights and so on. We didn’t connect very well.
So my lack of self love and all these difficult situations made be extremely depressed. I didn’t talk about these issues with anyone and I just suppressed my emotions as hard as I could until I couldn’t anymore. I felt like a burden to my family, especially to my mother, who suffered so much during those years. At one point I had fallen so low that I thought about killing myself many times. I even tried to do it a couple of times, but I always failed, because a part of me wanted to live.
Finally I touched the gloomy bottom so deep that I felt a lot of sadness and empathy towards myself, and I found the courage to forgive myself for everything what had happened. I realized that none of it was my fault. I had always wanted the best for myself and had never wanted to harm anyone else either. From that saddened, but understanding state, I discovered something magical inside me, which I couldn’t explain. In my mind there was no reason to live any longer, but somehow I just didn’t believe in that thought anymore. I found something more powerful and real beneath the rational, egoistic and fearful world. I saw the beauty of my inner being, which changed my life. A voice from deep within said to me: “Don’t give up! Life is precious. Believe in yourself and live!“ After that moment I decided to never give up, and a new door was finally opened.
After this radical shift in my consciousness, some magical things were starting to happen in my life. I saw things, which I couldn’t see before. I started to read a lot about many life phenomenons, analyze my dream life, tackle with my nightmares and become more brave than ever. I was also inspired by many people, who had similar physical challenges, but who seemed to enjoy and take best out their lives. This lead me to understand that my condition wasn’t the problem, but my attitude was the real deciding factor. I also received a gift in form of two esoteric books, which changed my thought patterns forever. I started to be grateful for what I had and think that maybe my accident had happened for a reason. I began to see a glowing light inside myself and that eventually lead me to where I am today.
This has been a long and challenging journey, but now I feel even happier than most people of the planet! I don’t regret what happened to me during all these years, instead I respect every single detail about my life, because all these experiences helped me to become the person I am. I realize now that my accident really was a wonderful gift to the whole world!
If you are interested in my story in greater detail, then read: The Story of My Life.
My 3 Biggest Dreams
Heal My Body and Run A Marathon
My biggest and most challenging dream is to heal my body and become able to walk and run again. Currently I can walk short distances with crutches using mostly upper body strength, but my goal is total regeneration of my spine to get all of my muscles and functions working again. It may sound crazy to others and It surely did for me many years ago, but as the time has progressed, I have started to believe in it more and more. Even though it’s been over 14 years since my accident, I am totally convinced that it’s possible and I will do it!
It’s truly my greatest potential and I enjoy becoming the best I can be. I want to have a near impossible goal like that and do what few can even dream about. It symbolizes strong faith, willpower, love and trust. Even thinking about it makes me cry and feel magical from the core of my heart and soul. I want to share this miracle with the whole world!
The goal is not to become happy, because I’m already a living proof of the possibility to be joyful in every life situation, but the purpose is to live passionately and experience this wonderful journey, which would also help to change the whole world. It’s just how I want to express myself and my inner power. I will do the “impossible,” because that’s who I am!
Overcome All My Fears and Become A Powerful Speaker & Singer
In addition to reaching for my highest physical potential, I wish to make a total mental and emotional transformation as well. Most of my friends and family have always considered me as a shy and closed person, who would never be a motivational speaker or have a strong presence around people, but I want to prove them all wrong!
Facing my fears is extremely important for me, because It helps me to become free and courageous like I truly am. Fears are just illusions, which appear real. I want to experience life as It truly is and have fun. I can’t hold back and limit myself, because of some absurd fears or experiences in the past. It’s ridiculous and doesn’t make any sense! Nobody is born afraid or unconfident. There are always some kind of emotional traumas involved, which have wired a person’s brain and left a scar in his/her body. It’s the same thing for me. I am just going to let go of my fears so my inner child could come out and shine again. I will become who I’ve always been deep down.
I feel that the world deserves and needs my messages. I can help thousands if not millions of people if I just let go of my fears! I can open the hearts of people and make them feel inspired and powerful. There’s so much potential I can’t afford to waste. I want to make a difference in the world and I’m going to do it beautifully!
I truly believe that we can create our own destiny to live the life we desire. We are not controlled by our past, environment, physical condition, family or friends. It’s not important who and how we’ve been in the past, it’s what we decide to do in the present moment. I want to be a rebel, who does what most people don’t even believe in, and surprise the hell out of them. I want to show the world that we can be ANYONE!
Become an Entrepreneur, Who Creates Value, and Achieve Financial Freedom
It’s one thing to have a wonderful personal development, but sharing your soul and your life experiences with other people is on a totally different level. We don’t live only for our own happiness and well-being. We are all connected and therefore we should support ourselves as much as possible. I really believe my life could make a huge difference on the planet and that’s why I’m going to give everything I’ve got!
I have no desire to trade my time for money by working in a company from 9 to 5. That’s just slavery and I can’t support it in any way. I don’t want to wait for the distant future to start living, instead I want to live right now. I want to be myself, live passionately and receive money by doing so. What you give, you receive, so I’m going to give as much as I can and create tons of value, which can influence other people’s lives. I want to awaken the power inside people so they start to consciously care and love themselves and the environment around them.
I wish to raise the vibration on this planet and play a big part in the healing and transformation process, which is happening at the moment. Making other people happy makes me happy as well! There is nothing more beautiful than seeing the light awaken in the eyes of powerful beings, who blossom.
What’s this blog about?
After discovering my passion for writing a couple of years ago, I realized that I have a lot to share. Each written article on my previous Estonian blog gave me more confidence than before and the seed started to grow. At one point I even began to write a book about my life, make simple YouTube videos to practice speaking, take singing lessons to overcome fears and do other brave stuff. This lead me to greatly expand my comfort zone and believe that I am capable of doing so much more.
As my work life was getting closer and closer and I didn’t want to depend on social support and pension any longer, I started to regularly do the things I am passionate about and made steps towards entrepreneurship and financial freedom. I don’t have a clear plan yet, but I believe that this website will lead me closer to achieving my goals. Writing this blog helps me to develop myself, overcome many fears and limits, become more open and share my life experiences with other people.
This blog is mostly about the journey of my life, which has been challenging, but inspiring and awakening. I give advice about different hardships in life and how to overcome them, calming the mind, dealing with emotions, becoming healthier and happier, self development and much more. I’m also going to show how I’m going to make my dreams come true!
I hope this will inspire and encourage you to be your best and never give up! Accepting and overcoming the greatest pain of our life brings forth the awesomeness of it all and unleashes the heart, which is stronger than everything else!